I have started this post and deleted it a million times. It has been hard to think of the right words and this is not meant to offend anyone at all by any means. This is for all the women (and men) who are trying for a baby and want one really bad but are having a hard time. I think about you all EVERY single day. I pray for you. I hope with you. You are not forgotten. Obviously I don't understand what it's like to try for months and months and years and years but for those of you have tried for so long without a baby you are ALL in my thoughts and prayers every single day. I can't imagine how hard it is. With Max, we tried for 5 months and that was really hard every month feeling like a year when obviously it wasn't. It was hard! So I can't imagine how hard it is for everyone who has been trying but has been unsuccessful. It must be really heartbreaking. I don't understand why Heavenly Father gives a lot of people that trial and then there are people who mistreat their kids or kill their kids for no reason (or a reason that's not a good one) it makes no sense to me. There are TONS of people on my friends list on Facebook that would LOVE a baby and they are having a hard time and those are the ones that I think about constantly. You are all in the back of my minds and hope that one day you will be blessed with kids of your own.
Now that I'm pregnant with my 2nd, I try and not to go on and on about me bragging about it or anything and if I am offending anyone or you feel like I'm not thinking about you, I definitely am. Like I said, I am thinking about you every single day. I don't know what it's like to not try for a year or more but I can only imagine and it hurts my heart that so many people are trying for a blessing of their own and it feels like it's not fair. It definitely isn't. I know a lot of people who have tried for a long time and haven't had success. My sister in law doesn't really know this and I hope she doesn't mind that I talk about her but she is always in my mind and thoughts and I pray for her every single day. She has had multiple miscarriages and last year she finally was successful in having a baby but at the last minute when the baby was due his heart stopped and he was a stillbirth. That breaks my heart and I don't understand why she has to go through this trial. It is really hard for her but I know that she will be blessed (whether in this life or the next) with a baby that she can call her very own. She is one of the best people that I know and I know it will happen for her.
I really hope that for all of you struggling that you will be blessed soon. I love you all and am praying that you will have your own baby or adopt. You all deserve it.
